After our daughter passed away in October 2015, I was completely lost. I literally felt as if the world was just moving on when I wanted time to stop and freeze. For everyday that passed I felt I was moving further away from Emery Rose and if I could just hang on to the brief moments we had together that somehow we would remain close. I remember sitting in the house hearing the traffic outside and thinking, “How can I go on without leaving her behind?” It’s hard to even consider the thought that anyone could come close to feeling the pain and anguish I felt and sometimes still do. Family and friends did their best to be there for my husband and I know they felt themselves they just didn’t know what to truly do to comfort us. I was referred to Angel Baby Network by the bereavement coordinator at Cincinnati Children’s Hospital. Once connecting to Danielle, I immediately had a sense of belonging. Finally, someone I could talk to who really knew the thoughts racing in my head and someone I could share those thoughts with without fear of pity or shame. Driving to the first event I was a little nervous. Being in the Cincinnati area was enough to bring back a flood of memories. It is where I spent the last 5 weeks of my pregnancy camped out in the hospital on a mission to save my daughter. It is where she was born and where she ultimately died. When I was released from the hospital I had declared I was never coming back to Cincinnati and yet there I was driving along the interstate headed to meet someone I had only spoken to via Facebook. After attending the first event/group, I experienced a true connection. We were a group of mothers and fathers who truly understood what this grief thing was all about. I honestly had visions of groups looked like. Parents sitting in a circle passing tissues and continuing to be stuck. Instead, it was nothing like that. I met parents who shared the story of their children. We spent time discussing a topic and most importantly we were all there for each other. I knew I would be back and, in fact, I was already looking forward to it. I left that day with seeing what healthy healing looked like. I have meet parents whom I have formed true friendships. We keep in contact with each other in between events and are truly there for one another. I have a support system now and through our children we are connected for life. –April

Today was a very helpful and healing day for me. I went to an event through the Angel Baby Network that helps parents (Fathers are included) deal with losing a child. I’m not going to lie I was hesitant about going, because it’s very painful for me to express how I feel deep down inside. I felt shameful of my feeling and thoughts. I thought I was the only one who felt the way I did. I learned today that those thoughts and feeling were “normal” and I wasn’t alone. I want to thank my aunt for introducing me to Danielle Jones, because people always say go get help or its help out there, but they never point you into the right direction to get the help and support that one needs to cope with the lose of a child. Thank you, Auntie, for pointing me into the right direction! I also want to thank my mother for always supporting me and coming with me to the meeting to help me make the first step into healing myself. Thank you Mommy! I also want to thank my family & friends that let my cry on their shoulders when I need it! Although, it’s been almost 5 years it still hurts like it happened today, but today going to this support group gave me some peace, healing, understanding, & support. Today my family has gotten a little bigger. We ate, shared, cried, laughed together, & we all have a special bond with each other. –Tracey